I just saw a news article about a woman jumping off the St Croix bridge today, with her 11 year old left in the car on the side of the highway. I think about the tragedy that we had here in River Falls with the Schaffhausen murders this summer. And then there are the traumas that have struck my own family, myself, and others that are dear and close to me. 2012 was a rough year and no one was left out. I remember as a teenager thinking that my problems were unique and no one could possibly understand me. Ha! Turns out I am not that special after all. Just look around.
All year there have been miracles, too. You just have to look for them. I’ve had some amazing ones. Things like winning the American Cheese Society scholarship and being honored out in North Carolina. Equally as amazing have been spring flowers blooming and the sound of the wind through the trees.
There is also a lot of support out there. I’ve worked with doctors, healers, and therapists on a myriad of things this last year. And I consider my boxing coach to be a healer, too. 🙂 My church community and the fellow participants at Landmark Education have also been there for me. There is also a lot of career support for people without jobs and I wrote about those resources the other day.
Do you feel it in the air? The feeling of a new fresh beginning with the New Year? I feel it. Things are getting released and I am ready.
Here is what astrologist Tosha Silver wrote on her facebook page today:
So if you’re emotionally a bit overwrought, well hell…
We’re coming to a Full Moon Friday at 8 degrees Cancer. That’s emotional anyway (Cancer ruling the Moon Herself) but also the Sun in Capricorn conjuncts Pluto, the Lord of Death and Rebirth. Deep, deep emotional healing time, one of the strongest of the year.
Many old feelings are being excavated for healing and acknowledgement. Good to feel them, bless them, offer them to the Divine… No need to blame, judge or repress. You’ll KNOW which to act on and which to just feel and release. Sometimes that’s all they need.
But some ’emotional truths’ may finally come to the surface that have been long repressed. This can honestly be a great, blessed thing. Pluto digs up what under the surface, that’s its job. It gets to the heart of the matter.
“Change me O Divine Beloved into One who can have my feelings without fear or judgement, letting them arise like clouds in the night sky. Let me accept them as holy expressions of my own inner Self. Let me trust and love myself. All is well.”